Just had it

Sometimes, life is VERY unfair, not just unfair but "VERY"!!!
People that you though are your close friends pay more attention to someone, whom they used to think less of it.
When you treat someone as your good friend, she puts you at the bottom of the food chain. (yup, still influenced under the magic of the lion king musical that I watched last night)
Some people just had it all good things come along their way although they are not the best people / friends that you can ever find.
Although I know, you cannot never expect people to give you back the same amount of what you have given to them but it upset me sometimes. In fact, I have been quite upset for the past few weeks, just trying to try to stay alive is so hard, especially I can no longer see any hopes towards my future.

Life is tough, to be alive is tougher, to stay alive is more tougher and to try to stay alive is the toughest!!!

Disappointment

Disappointment...I am totally disappointed with someone whom I thought of as a friend, not really close friend but at least we used to get along till she graduated from a private university and fetched a highly paid job.

When I needed her to pass me the product that she helped me to buy, (I paid her back straight away) weeks ago, she didn't reply my sms to ask if she could meet me up, nothing. I sms-ed her more than one time, but no reply.

However, she was quite active in her blog, constant updates of her daily amuses in the office or her oversea trips.

After a few months, she sms-ed me if I wanted to get more products, I replied no need, I just bought a new one after I received no reply from her all these time.

Again, she chose to be an ostrich, buried her head in the ground, didn't reply me and after a few days, she sms-ed if she could buy the product from me.

At that moment, I gave up. I gave up anything related to her, I will not reply her from this day onwards, I want nothing related to her, so I will remove her contacts from whatever network that we used to share.

Begin and End

最初是一个人, 最后也是一个人.

Updates

Blackie is kicking again, after numberous help calls and changed of parts!!! \(>o<)/

Blackie is well again while I am in isolation now. Will it lead to depression ultimately??!!